So today I penned down a poem about what I have been feeling off late or what I have not been feeling off late. I say so because where I should be tasting sweet, to me it is tasting bitter. The hardest thing in life is trying to be in love where you feel you don't belong, and as much as you need to be in it and try to fit yourself in it, you still just don't feel it, you know. I met this amazing person and I really tried to work things out with her but it could not...not because of her but because of me. So leaving her meant breaking her heart. I guess the end sometimes justifies the means...she deserves better and so I had to leave my footsteps across her heart, I speak of it as if it is an easy move but it is not. So I penned this poem to dedicate it to her and to let my heart out to the rest of the seven billion people out there..cheers!!

This is my goodnight kiss and your goodbye lullaby
My hymn hoping to heal where I’m about to break
I so wish that these words taste better than I am sorry
For it’s unjust that my presence draws from you life

I really wish that this heart of me would be yours
That you’d be the splendor I awaken next to every dawn
To watch your eyes tango away step to step with shyness
As I whisper sweetness of romance novice to my imagination

But tell me how do I steer with my eyes stuck on rear view?
For my heart that you long for is enslaved in another’s arm
She who which from a distance is too blind to closely see me
Yet to you who is here next to me my heart shuts its eyes

The pain I put you through can’t allow me to stay to sober
I see your words and feel your actions of love that burns for me
Your hopes for us taste so sweet on my flavorless tongue
But I’m nothing but a dark ink writing your tale

I try with my all to feel the same way you feel for me
Instead of falling in love I’m drowning, suffocating in its pool
Dying from the fact that I can’t be the man I want for you
Love should burn in flames but in me it is just ashes

I wish it is you I can truly offer this fragile heart of mine
But you came a minute too late to bring it back from dead
For it hurts me that I meet the girl with all that I adore
But it is her that suffers from this bitter sweet of void in me

You say it is better to have anything than to be alone
But I am a lone wolf, a vessel, a human empty of emotions
And planting seeds on a rock won’t bring forth any fruit
No matter how you water it, the rock will only shatter

On my knees I beg for your mercies to charter me forgiveness
But if it’s beyond your means then do wish me well
For I was enthroned with a curse that every poet suffers
Poets do not fall in love; our hearts are in the pens we hold

I’m sorry that you aren’t the one amid my dreams and nightmares
For you are a beautiful human and I’m just a whisper of a song
©g!o.inked

So i was thinking today of how we take important things for granted and magnify our times on certain things that truly hold not much value in our life...these that basically brings us "security" but not love...i mean on a serious note, what is more insecure than being lonely? Everyday we wake up and the first things we think of are of monetary value and we go all through the day with nothing but this thought. This has become part of our lives to the extent we don't remember that money only bring us temporary happiness, but friends and family brings us joy but still we'd rather choose career over family. Marilyn Monroe once said, " A career is wonderful but you can't curl up with it in bed."...we've all become nothing but zombies yearning to be humans.

Yesterday a friend of mine lost a friend through accident and she told me how she was shocked on how life can be so short. It had me thinking, why do we ignore people as if we know they'll be there tomorrow when truth of the matter is that, we are not promised that?  We hold resentment in our hearts when we know can show love, we postpone things in ignorance when we can just do them today, you make mistakes saying that tomorrow i'll apologize/we'll talk and everything will be alright when you can just avoid it in the first place, we take people for granted when deep within us we know that we need them. Humans are considered to be ruling the highest rank in knowledge capacity but sadly enough i find it that humans are the most ignorant of all God's creations. The big question is, when you wake up today and find that friend/family member dead, will you say you lived a well satisfied life with him/her? Or will you forever hold thirst in you that will never be quenched?

If you have a friend that has made you smile or has really influenced the person you are today, but of late the communication link between you two has been on a wreck, why are you waiting for him/her to call you first if you can do it? If you know you had a fight with someone special in your life that you never want to lose, would you trade that for his/her death? A family member that you have not been on good terms with, what if he/she is stolen today? It is always said, the beautiful things in life are free...stop chasing for temporary happiness if you've been blessed by people you know make you happy in your life. I am not saying that we should not go for our dreams and work hard, just remember life is not for going through but to be lived and money creates no memory....for this life is nothing but a whisper. Let the ones that add/have added colors to your life know that their presence in this life is valued...in this life you can regain everything you have lost, but not a moment stolen.
 © g!o.inked

Okay this pretty long but ensure you read it for it's really useful.

Each and every single minute we interact with different people in our lives. Knowing or un-knowingly and with a single act or word towards them changes a lot plus it changes a huge number of people. Within your palms you hold destiny that is not only yours but of a lot people. Here is a story:

John’s alarm rung at 6.00am as always to wake him up and prepare for work, but today John was still exhausted from the fun he had the previous night with his girlfriend to be Julia. So instead of waking up, he stretches his hand and accidentally knocks the clock to the floor leaving the clock broken. At 8.00am Julia is disturbed by the absence of John at work, thus she decides to call him. John still suffering from confusion, he rushes outside his house and accidentally steps on a ball that was left at his doorstep by the neighbor’s kid. He trips landing on his butt leaving him with a scratch on his arm.

He furiously walks into the neighbor’s house to find the mother of the kid, Jenny, sleeping on the couch. He yelled at Jenny on how irresponsible she is and she shouldn’t even think of herself as a mother. As he walks out he slams the door behind him leaving Jenny jaw-dropped. Jenny in the meanwhile was actually thinking of how life at her house has become a living hell. She takes a few minutes to think of how minutes before John walked in she prayed for a miracle, for someone to just walk in and tell her that everything is going to be alright. She regains her conscience, picks her phone and calls her husband Jeremy who happens to be interviewing someone for job and asks for a divorce.

Upon hearing this news, Jeremy reacts by shouting at the interviewee (who actually happens to qualify for the job) for accidentally knocking the files on the table to the floor as she was standing up and telling her that the company doesn’t need mindless people and under-educated like her. Jessica, the interviewee, who happens to be turned down now for the seventh time in a row, leaves the office hurt and disappointed at the fact that her parents could not afford taking her to a college that she wanted and studying what she wanted. She leaves the building crying and considering herself not worthy of anything. She suddenly gets a call from her boyfriend Jude who wanted to meet her for coffee.

After roughly fifteen minutes, Jessica joins Jude at a café, Jude looks happy and optimistic in his heart knowing that Jessica had forgiven him for the infidelity he had with Judith a couple of weeks ago. In her heart, Jessica is happy at the thought of at least spending the afternoon with the one she loves. As she sits down at the table trying to hide the pain of losing another Job opportunity she fakes a smile to please Jude. They start a chat but after sometime Jude notices she is not really up for talking and fumes at her that she can’t let go of little things even after apologizing. Not able to take it any more, she yells at him and walks out on him leaving him sitting.

Jude leaves the café pissed off and makes a call to Joel his friend. After a few minutes Joel pulls by and Jude hopes in. Along the way Joel asks Jude why the sad face but instead, the short tempered Jude answers Joel in a rude manner. This offends Joel and the two friends involve themselves in a verbal fight, in the meantime Joel pays a little attention to the road and accidentally hits a girl that was coming outside a bookstore from buying his to-be boyfriend a novel that he so much wanted. The screech of the accident draws attention to the pedestrians and those in the near-by buildings.

Meanwhile, John who was being lectured by his boss Jade for reporting late to work just stands there lost in thoughts about the next date he would have with Julia tonight but suddenly a fellow worker, Jasmine, rushes in and alerts them of the accident outside. John on reaching outside he slowly manages to squeeze himself through the packed crowd and succeeds to be at the front only to see Julia covered in blood, lying next to her is the book he was telling her about the previous night. The Diary: Chronicles of Neill. End of the story ♣

Be careful on how you live your life. A single small act that you could have just turned around but instead avoided can kill a lot of people. Be the source of hope to people. Be the miracle they are looking for. If only John wouldn’t shout at his neighbor Jenny, he maybe would have saved the marriage of Jenny and Jeremy, Jessica would have gotten the job, Joel wouldn’t be going behind bars and maybe John would happily have married Julia.

Legal Disclaimer: The characters and events depicted in this story are fictitious. Any similarity to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.