So finally i managed to pen down the emotions that were clouding my heart and preventing me from dealing with my past. It is amazing how you can get over someone without moving on and that's the single mistake i guess i have been doing each time my relationships fall off the edge of the cliff. So for the first time i am going to chin up, dust the dust off my coat and say, i am fine and mean it without hiding treasure that i still carry from the past. But first things first...drain off all the emotions in your heart.

So i am going to take step by step as i update this diary of a silly Gemini on my progress...so this is day one...i flush off the emotions that i hide in me, be it anger or love and the best way for me is to write a poem. Amazingly i did manage to write this one below...so i blog it

LEAKING FACE

Here I am penned in pain writing you the last of us

I write this sitting among mourning chamber of gods

Who weep for me and dry their tears with clouds above

So that I can quench my pain from drinking theirs

I am the loser who awaits to fall as winner takes it all

I try to pretend everyday that you and I are over

I clothe truth with garments of lies about my pain

Until yesterday when I heard the winds whisper your name

Your name with someone’s who had replaced mine

I choked from the stench of memories I can’t erase

And lies that you had me enslaved with by you

How you painted a perfect picture of hope I held dearly

About tomorrows that you held so high just to tease me

How foolish was I to fight just to hold onto nothing

Like when I tried to kiss you and you pushed me away

Why couldn’t I see that you were saving your lips for him?

Another victim you’ve lured by your charms that now kill me

To you it was so easy jumping out of a flying plane

Because you knew we would fall so you brought your parachute

You landed on your feet and made merry at my broken pieces

I died and resurrected from the misery you left me in

But despite growing wings I find myself crawling back to you

Because I hunger for your pain that you had me addicted

You gave me so much endless nights on short days

The best adventures of my life I explored them with you

But you took me deep in the jungle where for a reason I never saw

Until you left me because you knew I’d be lost without you

Thanks to you now I can see the world in a single color

Thanks to you now I can’t listen to my favorite songs

Because they play nothing but memories on how we danced to them

You’re the last hero in armored suit that I’ll ever need to save me

For you come protected with an ambition to wreck me

Then brag that you kept your heart safe from me

This love was never a game for winner to be crowned

But truth is we were just racing for a destiny that was never there

You won and finally found that one to replace me

All I did was write Fading April hoping it would quench me

I hope you use my silly jokes I made to make you smile on him

And lie that I’m just someone you don’t want to remember

When we know that I am the past that gave you your present

Don’t worry I am not in tears I just have a leaking face

Melting from the candle lit at the base of my heart

As I become a record that broken hearts play

© g!o.inked

So I decided to try my hands on classic poetry, I know my Shakespeare English is a bit rusty but at times it is fun to try your hands on new horizons. The poem below was a random thought of love and if i met love today, just to have a cup of coffee with her, what would i tell her and thus the born of this thoughts.  

 

Oh love, Oh love how wretched is thy plans

Permit me to say "I do" to thy sister hate

For the benefits of pain that are to me well-known

Thou clothe thy nightmares with scintillating promises

That thou shall bestow me happiness eternally

But thy eternal lasted only to the edge of my cradle

People are looking for thee yet thou art the loneliest

I won’t wear thy ring which is just a manacle on my finger

Hope and Faith thy sisters have consistently deserted thee

That’s why thou leave matrimonies with divorce papers

Oh love, Oh love my beloved old acquaintance

Why doth a married damsel look for thee in cellars secretly?

Why doth a husband look for thee in alcohol bottles?

A perfect matrimony thee said guaranteed torn apart

Oh love, Oh love fools keep thee in wallets for safety

Then thou send beauties of the night to rob them with thy pleasures

Our last encounter thou robbed me my only beating heart

Now thou try to squeeze thyself in my only breathing lungs

They cannot beat my dearest love thou art chocking me

Oh love, Oh love allow the Nightingale to soar away

For the lonely bird only find peace in pleasures of pain

That never promises happiness with promises to be broken

Oh love, Oh love how wretched is thy plans

  © Giovanni

When you think of friendship and can't find the perfect words to utter about it...nothing digs the heels of words than the poem below...totally lovely

A Thought on Friendship